Thursday, February 5, 2009

Rejection

Alright, it's short, but here it is...
I took a look at my horoscope today and this was part of it:

"Don't be surprised to experience a little (or a lot) of rejection. What did you expect? You can't (and shouldn't) connect with everyone. When you're done licking your wounds, realize you're a fantastic person. So you got dumped. Big deal! Someone way better is around the corner!"


Hmmmm, it's kinda how I've been feeling these past few weeks, but man oh man do the horoscopes just put it out there in black and white for ya. Where's the love and the sympathy for being dumped and rejected???

I have to admit too that I'm still a but bummed about the whole thing w/ D.B., and the whole situation has gotten my mind working on over time. I can't stop thinking about what I want in my future and how I feel like I'm running out of time as well to meet someone, fall in love, get married, and start a family. Hell, for all I know none of that is gonna happen til my 30's (at the rate I'm going), and well, it's kinda gotten me freaked out and bummed a lil. So I guess I can see why D.B. might be freaking out and jonesing to meet the right one, I mean the guy is 35, so...I'd want to die if I were 35 and still single! Well, I say that now, but who knows, it might not be that bad.

Anyways, I'm just feeling very rejected...

BOOBIES!!!

Okay, well, I'm gonna make this short.
I had a lump in my breast.
Had it checked out and even a biopsy done of the lump (it was so gross!).
The doctor put a needle in my breast! Twice!
He didn't numb it or anything.
Turns out I have an infection in my right breast, and it's the size of a golf ball. No joke.
You could bogie w/ this thing!!!

So anyways, things are okay w/ my "boobies" as of right now.
Lab results aren't back yet.

All I have to say is "WTF?"
I found this lump right after D.B. called it quits, so...it's been quite stressful and confusing.
I mean, the boy was clearly touching my boobs and how the hell did I, nor he, not notice it ever????
It literally just came out of nowhere. And me, well, I'd laugh my ass off if my doctor says it's from emotional stress. Yep, that's right, another date gone and another sickness brought on by emotional stress. It's happened before so I'd laugh my ass off if that's what's happening now...ha!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Mr. Right

Well, I just thought this sounded a bit too perfect for what's been going on in my life lately, and for what's been going on in my thoughts lately too...

Horoscope: Pisces
Feb. 1, 2009

"The challenge ceases to be about finding Mr. or Mrs. Right -- that's just impossible. You, yourself must become a better person through this experience. Once you live according to higher ideals and values, you'll attract a higher quality specimen."