Here one day, gone the next...

As soon as it has begun, it has also ended, or so it seems.

My first love, the one and only man I thought I'd be w/ til the end of time, decided to contact me last week. Yep, after not being together for over 2 1/2yrs, and after not having any communication w/ each other since last March, he has decided to get in touch w/ me. He's decided he wants to be a part of each other's lives again. Wow, that's great he can decide he wants that. Hmmm, now what about me? What about what I want right now? Does he not get it that I got over him? Does he not understand that the hardest thing I've had to do in the last 27yrs was get over him?

A year and a half of depression and an extra year on top of that of therapy to work hard and long to get past him and to realize my potential w/out this person. To realize the potential I have as an individual, as my OWN individual. So now I am over him and I am moving forward and going on w/ my life...and now this? WTF? How am I suppose to react to this?

I'll be honest...I was flattered and totally happy that he contacted me. It was what I had been wanting to hear for so long, that he wanted me back, that he wanted to communicate again. Cut to 5mins later, and I'm kinda mad and pissed and I can't believe he just decides he wants to show back up in my life. He thinks he can just prance right in and I will accept him w/ open arms??? He's got a thing or two to learn...And I know I sound angry right now and a bit pissed, but that's because this has really f*$@# w/ my head and my emotions right now, cause like I said before...I got over him! And now, deciding whether to let him back in or to continue to keep him on the outs is not EASY.