Was hit on by 3 different guys tonight, and all 3 of them just completely BORED me. What's the deal? I had great conversation w/ guy #1, but in the end the chemistry wasn't there and he just seemed to linger. Kind of awkward if you ask me. I was begging my friend to come and pull me away. Guy #2 tried. Yep, that's about it. He tried and I just wasn't having it. I think I just had my mind made up that I wasn't out and about tonight looking for dudes, and so my mind set just wasn't there. I didn't give 2 shits about chatting it up w/ some strange dude, ya know. Now there's guy #3, over confident, BIG ego, loves to talk talk talk about how great he is and all of his accomplishments. Can you guess how this one ended? Yah, again, not interested. Strike 3!
Now here's the thing...all 3 men were absolutely attractive and I even made one girl mad because I was talking to one of the dudes, but really when all is said and done, the chemistry was not there. I was NOT interested and I think it has something to do w/ the fact I don't want anything else tying me to Los Angeles. I'm 1 step away from packing up my apt and my car and driving up the coast til I hit Seattle. I hate to say it, but I'm over most of it down here in L.A. I am here for work, yet my work is the MOST unstable thing in my life. I work so HARD just to have what I have and to live where I live, yet my work is so completely UNSTABLE. It's almost not worth it to put myself through so much stress and emotion just to have the roof I have over my head, or to have the fancy street full of cute shops and restaurants that I live on, or the ocean that is so close. I have to work so hard and such long hours to have these things, that at times it seems rare that I even get to enjoy these things. Make sense?
Work sucks, I want out, and I'm pretty much over trying to meet someone in Los Angeles. Too many EGO's, too much pride, not enough HEART. So I think I've tuned myself out to the men that throw themselves my way. Love life is temporarily on hold. It desperately wants to relocate.
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