And so we meet again...

Okay, so I still don't get what is up w/ D.B.

He doesn't want anything from me, yet he still finds the time to iChat me up. He proceeds to tell me about his snowboarding adventures, as if he needs my approval or something. He comes at me like such an attention whore, yet I don't get why he's doing it. Yes, for attention, but why from me? Why is he wanting attention from me? From a girl he decided he didn't want to date any longer. I've been trying to ignore his lil messages or to just write one word answers and just act nonchalant, as if I don't care. I mean, it just bugs me that he's coming around like this, and for attention of all things. I would appreciate it more if he actually wanted to be w/ me, but...that's not that case now is it.

So the last time I saw D.B. was a lil over a month ago at the Neko Case show at Hotel Cafe. Well, I went to see Bob Mould (guitar player for The Pixies) at Hotel Cafe tonight w/ my friend Allison. Yep, I think you know where this is going. I got jammed up by the bar in a huge group of people, and as I am turning around in the crowd(I was the shortest person there, so I felt like I was being trampled in that crowd too) to see where Allison has gone, well, I turn around right into D.B. Yep, he's there, drink in hand, and a tall blonde in the other. I thought for sure he saw me cause I was right in front of him and I was like a freakin' speed bump at that point cause I was just surrounded by amazons or something. So I found Allison and we B-lined it to another part of the room. I just didn't want to be around him right then and there, especially when he was w/ another girl. And go figure, the last time I was at Hotel Cafe I saw him, and now I'm back again and I see him. Whiskey Tango Foxtrot!!!!!!!!

Needless to say I'm the dumb girl who decided to text him a few hours after the show and ask why he didn't come over and say hi. He said he didn't know I was there and that he didn't see me. I didn't respond. I just left it that. I know he saw me, so why is he now playing this stupid game? Sheesh! Furthermore, he's been bugging me for the past few days about where I am moving too. Long story short, he found out I am moving out of my apt, but I never told him where. So now he's just hounding me to find out where. I don't know why he cares. Once I tell him I'm moving to the beach he's just gonna say some asshole comment like, "why"...I just know that is what will come out of his mouth. I don't know why I'm playing this stupid game and not telling him. I just don't feel like giving him the satisfaction of getting his way, of getting what he wants (which is an answer to the question of where I am moving to). I know I'm a dumb girl (again) for playing this stupid game, but whatever...he's dumb for calling it quits, so...Part of me just really wants to say something like, "I'm moving back to Seattle to be w/ my family." I don't know why but I'd love to just tell him something like that and see what he says or does. But then I'd be the dumb and immature girl who is playing tricks...ha ha ha! Then he'd really be done w/ me for sure (oh well though, right? Not like we've got anything going right now).

And for some reason I'm wondering if he's getting it on w/ the blonde chick right now or not. Did she go home w/ him? Or did she take him home? Were they even there on a date? F***!!!!! Why am I even letting these thoughts get to me?

With all of that said...I was just a bit shocked to run into him tonight. It's gonna be like this for a lil while I can tell.

And so we meet again...