To Be or Not To Be...Vulnerable

So a few years back, when I was still on the journey to finding out who I am I had been in a relationship or two.
Of those few relationships one thing was common and one thing kept coming up in conversation. Most of the men I dated back then and my old boyfriends all had the complaint that I never told them how I felt. They all couldn't handle it that I couldn't express my feelings for them or my feelings in general. There was that time when I just couldn't completely open up. I was so vulnerable in every direction and it was the hardest thing ever. It was as if the cat got my tongue. I just couldn't spit out one syllable, let alone one word on how I felt for these men in my life. So I sorta blame that on why most all of these boys left our relationship and went in their own direction.

Cut to a few years down the road, and here I am the most comfortable I've ever been in my own skin. I am so stoked on me and who I am and I just want people to see the real me. So why is it now, that I feel this good about me and I am no longer that "Vulnerable Vixon" that the men still leave. I mean, I have no problem telling family, friends, even boys how I feel these days. Hell, I think it's the most important thing these days to tell the people you love how you feel. It's no longer about vulnerability w/ me anymore, it's just about being myself. So why is it that the boys get scared off when I tell them how I feel. You leave me when I can't open up and you leave me when I do open up. Good Lord, give me a break. What do you boys want?!!!!