Not sure where to begin, other than I totally crushed one of my best friends feelings recently and I didn't even realize I was doing it. I kinda fell into a 2wk slump after my recent show was cancelled. I went into this "freak out about my life" mode and even fell into a bit of a short term depression. Yah, I get moody I guess. So within all of that I completely isolated myself. It's just what I do. It's sort of my fight or flight response, only it's isolation from everyone and everything. To be honest, it's not fun and not what I'd like to think I'm capable of, but it's kinda all I know when I feel a certain way.
My best bud in LA, Katie, has only been the most supportive and comforting person for me through all of this industry bullshit/drama and even the personal chaos that is my life, and I completely shut her out. I mean, there was just nothing she could do for me (at least that is how I felt). There was nothing anyone could do for me cause I was in a mood and I was the only one who could get me through it or to snap out of it.
Make sense?
She tries so hard w/ all of us kids down here in LA and even w/ her own family, and believe me it does not go unnoticed. She's such a caring and compassionate soul and is always trying to find a solution. She truly is a REAL friend. She's GREAT! She's Momma Katie! But I was the asshole who shut her out.
I just had to write and say that in the midst of my crazy headtrip/short term depression/isolation that I put myself through recently, well, I ended up hurting someone close to me, and for that I am truly sorry.
Love ya Momma Katie!
(I publicly give you permission to kick me in the groin w/ steel toes or hit me w/ your car while im riding my cruiser next time I try to isolate)
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