I'm so tired of walking on eggshells around some people who are in my life right now. And I'm not even sure walking on eggshells is what it really is. I'm tired of constantly having to watch my behavior or what I say around certain people in order not to hurt their feelings or piss them off or send them off into one of their famous disappearing acts, AKA a coke frenzy(I'm being serious here). It's like I can only say a few words here or there and then I have to wait for their reaction before I know what direction I can then go w/ the rest of the conversation or something like that. It's really weird and too much work for me. I am who I am and I do damn well whatever I want and if friends in my life can't handle it or don't want to hear it then they should leave. They should quit getting butt hurt and sensi to things that go on in my life and my personal life(things that don't even concern them).
I guess this all stems from Brett telling me "I'm so L.A." last night and then pulling a disappearing act on all of us. WTF? So L.A.? Really dude? Well, it's too bad he's the only one who thinks that(Hell, Brianna thinks I'm so NY, ha!). Umm, he hasn't even been to L.A. so he's got no room to judge, and this is such a waste of my time to go off on him or even think about going off. Bottom line, I am me, and I am HAPPY! You don't like it...LEAVE! Hmmm, so maybe that's it. Maybe it's my happiness that has sent him into a bit of a "hey I'm gonna say hurtful things to you" mode just to get some attention or a reaction(damn you Leo's!). I know that game w/ him all too well. I can see it all the way from L.A., that's how well I know it.
I'm just tired of it, ya know. I thought after the wedding we had started a really good friendship. I just don't know what to think anymore and I don't know if I have the energy for it anymore.
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