Okay, so I've mentioned I had issues w/ one of my breasts. I was freaking out a few months back about this lump in my breast, that supposedly was an infection, not cancer, but just an abscess. Well, it sorta went away, and now it's back. It's back, and it's bigger and a bit more painful. Went to the good doctor again, and he still doesn't know what the "F" it is, so...now I'm headed to see a surgeon about having this lump straight up removed. Now here's where it gets heavy. My lump now has lumps of it's own and my breast is changing colors. Yep, that's right, it's bright red and sorta purple where the lump is. Now I am no doctor, but I have done some reading, and I'm pretty sure this isn't normal. I'm pretty sure something BIG is going on. I've basically diagnosed myself w/ "IBC" (Inflammatory Breast Cancer). I have a few of the symptoms, but what did it for me was the changing colors of the skin, I mean, that's just not normal. I feel like it turns a darker shade of red each morning I wake up too.
I'm in denial that this is happening to me, I really am. Funny thing is, it's on my mind 24/7. Everytime my boss walks out of the room I'm feeling my breast. Or everytime I go to the bathroom I'm lifting up my shirt to see if my breast has changed color again or something. It's just constantly on my mind. Hell, when I do yoga or pilates I get frustrated when we have to lye on our stomachs because it's so uncomfortable lying on a lump and being all lopsided on the floor. I just want it gone!!! I just want it to go away or be cut away or what have you. Go, get, begone!!!
So I am seeing a breast surgeon next week about it all. Wish me luck, right.
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