Professional "Bullshitter"

I have so much anger inside right now, and I have so much anger inside that is being brought on by DB. I see him and I want to literally beat him up. I want to full on sprint towards him throwing punches, kicking out his legs from underneath him, pinning him to the ground and physically beating him up. I just have so much hate and anger towards the guy. I hate that I feel this way, but it's how I feel. Haven't really been able to discuss it w/ my therapist for the past few months, so I'm trying to figure it all out myself.

I'm angry and hurt cause he rejected me. I'm angry and hurt because after rejecting me he continued to play some sort of head game w/ me as if I were some insecure, vulnerable, naive girl who would come to his beck'n call, anytime...not the case!

I hate games!!!

It makes me mad that he thinks he has some sort of spell on me or control over me. It angers me that when I do randomly run into him at shows or at the beach (so random), or where have you, that he tries to pretend that he and I are friends and that he knows me oh so well. He doesn't know me. I am angry that he has to point out and say that he is a good guy and a good person, when in reality HE IS NOT. He does shitty things to people and doesn't give a shit about anyone else but himself, yet he doesn't want to look like a douche so he verbally tells people he's a "good guy." He's in denial about his actions. On top of that, he feels the need to be the center of attention all the time. If he's not the center of attention or if it's not his story being told then he fears people won't be paying attention to him. He's an "attention whore!" He can't be a cool, chill guy just hanging out w/ friends and socializing like normal people. He's got to be a crazy SPAZ who demands everyones attention. It's all about him and it's always on his time. Whatever dude. Like I've said before, go "F" yourself with sandpaper, and forget about me as well. Thanks.

So now you can see why I am a bit mad and angry and sad and all of the above when it comes to DB. He had such great potential in the beginning, and I gave him the benefit of the doubt. He turned the tables though and turns out he really is a douche. He should teach classes on how to "schmooze" and "brown nose" in business and personal life. The guy is not REAL, he is a robot. Somehow I think I need some sort of closure from all of this, and the only way I know to get closure from DB is to get the last word. Either send him an "Abel" email, or to physically beat him up and then give him a last word.

I'm so angry!