The Plague

Okay, do I have the plague or something? I just have to ask, because the past few days and even the past few weeks I just feel like I have the plague and no one wants to be around me. I feel like most of my friends(in L.A.) are just completely M.I.A. and don't give a shit about me, and everyone's just off doing their own thing. Cool, great, I get it, you have your own life too, but come on, we are friends. Aren't friends suppose to hang w/ friends and share w/ friends and be a part of their friends' lives??? Yah, that's what I thought. So apparently I have the plague though. Ugh!!!

My best friend was feeling this way a few weeks back and it made me so sad cause I've totally felt this way before and I get it. It made me even more sad though cause she felt like I was sorta M.I.A. at the time and I really didn't mean to be, it's just so damn hard to be around 24/7 when you don't live in the same state. And yes, maybe I am a hypocrite cause I was just bitching about how everyone has their own shit going on, blah blah blah, and just now I wanted to say that I had so much of my own craziness going on that I couldn't be around for my BFF in Idaho. Yah, it goes both ways apparently, and I get it.

I just hate having the feeling of not being wanted or that everyone is essentially steering clear of me and my path for reasons unknown to me. It doesn't make me feel all that great, and at the same time it makes me feel really bitter towards the people in my life that are steering clear of me.

Hmmm, where are REAL friends when you need them?