D.B. turned out to be a real DB (douche bag)...

I'm in denial.
I'm in shock and I'm in disbelief.
I feel like my stomach has been scooped out of my body.
I feel like my heart has skipped a beat and I just feel empty all around.
I almost think I am having an out of body experience right now, cause I'm just in such disbelief.

I've been officially rejected via iChat. Yep, that's right. It was like pulling teeth, so to speak, but I got D.B. to admit that he was over it. And to him, he feels like he was being a gentleman and being all honest and good about the whole thing, but that's not how I see it. First off, it took me, bringing it up for everything to go down, and over iChat of all things. Second, he told me that he was getting older and basically wanting to settle down and he didn't see me in his future (basically that is what he said). I'm basically not the girl he'd want to take home to mom, or something like that. WTF? I'm the best fucking girl you'd want to take home to your parents and to take home to your own place. I'm so caring and understanding, nurturing and loving...I'm wild and I'm sweet. I have it all and he didn't see that. So here I am, in denial, super bummed, and just confused as hell.

I've been through this so many times (the whole rejection thing) that I knew it was coming...I was just hoping that this one time my gut feeling, my instincts, were wrong about D.B. I feel so rejected and unwanted and unloved. I feel so small. I feel like no one wants me. I feel like I'm not good enough :( I just put so much faith into D.B. So many good thoughts and feelings, so many expectations...basically I put all my eggs into one basket, and that basket belonged to D.B. How is he to say that I don't want what he wants. How is he to say that I don't want a family. How is he to say any of that?

I just think he met someone else...bottom line.
So when he thinks he looks good by being honest and telling me the truth, bla bla bla, well...he's really a sack of shit cause he's lying about the real truth. There is someone else.

Guess D.B. turned out the be a real DB (Douche Bag)!!!!

p.s.
He said he still likes me and wants to hang out and go snowboarding, etc...
what? How the hell am I gonna be able to handle that? I like the guy, and here he is saying he wants to hang out and be friends but not have a relationship...uh???? That's not gonna work dude...you're fooling yourself, but thanks for playing...