What are the odds?

So today my friend Allison and I had plans to go to some music industry lunch at the Hotel Cafe in Hollywood. Neko Case was performing and it was just gonna be so much fun and we were gonna get lunch and drinks out of the whole deal too. I couldn't wait! I told my new show that I had a doctor's appt this afternoon (totally cool guys, they didn't care) and off I went to meet Allison at 11:45am this afternoon.

Now how funny is this? As soon as we walk inside the venue we hit the line for food(not the funny part yet). I've just picked up 2 mini cupcakes, one vanilla and one chocolate (had to try both...yumm!), and who do I run into...D.B. Yep, go figure, small FUCKING music industry world, right? D.B. has come back to the food line to grab multiple cupcakes (that's my boy!) and I think he's a bit shocked to see me standing there saying hello to him. It got kinda weird cause I really wasn't expecting to see him there and it wasn't even really a thought that he'd be there at all. So I was just trying to go do my thing and not get in his way. I was there w/ Allison and we were on a mission to have a fun time! Even if it was lunch time. Well, he took it as a sign that I was mad at him or that I didn't want to hang around and talk. Well, I didn't want to hang around and talk cause I feel like I'd just be getting sympathy attention from him. Hell, the guy rejected me! The guy told me I wasn't wife material for him. I wasn't allowed a spot in his future. I don't feel like anything I have to say to D.B. now will be taken seriously or remembered or will have any significance to him, ya know. So yah, I was trying to B-line it away from him. Next thing I know he and Allison are talking and getting chummy and I'm feeling like I just can't escape him. What did I do to deserve this? My fight or flight response was kicking in and all of a sudden I wasn't hungry for the huge plate of food I had just served myself. Although I did tell myself that I had to eat the cupcakes, nerves or not, I wanted those cupcakes!!!! So there I am standing at the bar, trying to be nice to D.B. and to not seem awkward, but my legs were shaking, my stomach was queasy, I was getting light headed, and as I stared at the bar all I thought was, "I'm gonna get drunk." So I ordered a Newcastle (this was just the first of a few) and a Diet Coke for Allison and we proceeded to grab a seat. We sat at a table right in front of D.B. and his coworkers, but I kinda just tuned him out, cause I was there w/ my friend and first off, I had no idea he was even going to be there. So I just did my thing. I met an awesome chic, Alethia, also a Music Supervisor. Anyways, we hit it off and had some good conversation. We watched Neko Case sing and laugh and joke. It was a great lil set for being 1pm, even if Neko and friends were sleep deprived. I think the sleep deprivation gave the entire show more character :)

So yah, here I am trying to heal my wounds and bury old feelings from the past that have been brought to life, again, thanks D.B. But for some reason I keep seeing D.B. Well, okay, I've only seen him twice in the last 24hrs, but...He's gonna have to know that I run in the same circle that he does. Running into him today was just a taste of it all. I mean, we are bound to run into each other again. I mean after all we did meet at a music industry party, so he's crazy if he thinks he's never gonna run into me again.

I just want to heal, ya know.